Explanation. Sort of.
Sep. 5th, 2004 03:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
xp_daytripperTwo meals in one day today. Go me. Okay, so dry toast doesn't qualify as a meal usually, but if it stays down, it does. And I'm back in my own room, well, mostly. And that's all I'm saying since that stuff tends to freak people out, I'm told.
As for why all the throwing up and dramatics this past week or so... I had a bit of a setback. With that little problem of mine. I'm just about done with the detoxing (if I can stop shivering on and off for no reason), and Pete and Moira have me in hand (before I came back to my room I told them where I had stuff stashed, so there's no tempatation. And I think Pete did a bit of a look-through as well), so I'm well on me way to getting back on the wagon. It just got all too much, and I'm still learning about that whole 'leaning on people' thing. Tho' certain things happening meant that was a bit harder than usual too.
I've got another session with Samson tomorrow sometime. Great stuff. He'll have that understanding look and tell me all addicts have setbacks when they're trying to quit. Which makes me not feel a lot better, I can tell you. BUt I'm trying again, and as I've been told about a million times the last few days, I've got people to help me out. Especially Manny - he's been a bloody marvel, fights with the doctors aside. Which was my fault, actually. I got sort of freaked at the idea of going to medlab and since he already has doctor-phobia, mine added to his and things went blah. But he did take me down in the end, and I did get that second needle from Moira, Doc Bartlet, so no harm done, eh?
Frenchie, sorry for being such a daft cow the past couple of weeks. Can't have been easy having the crazy witch as a roomie. We'll have to do something bonding-like to make up for it - on-campus, tho', since yep, I'm still grounded. And Cain seems determined to wear me hands out, with all the sanding and stuff he's been getting me to do. All the boring, messy, hard stuff. I'm just glad we didn't mess up anything along the lines of sewerage pipes or something, or I'd be up to me elbows in the shite, literally.
Yer'd think he didn't like me or something. :P
And I've finally had a chance to sit down with Pete and go through classes. I'm taking a couple of extra since they're languages and I'm good at those, but I have to make sure the maths and science doesn't lose out. So, what I'm taking:
Maths - and hey, I even go up a level. Just scraped through the make-up test.
English - which is getting easier. The rules don't fit any of the regular language rules, but I'm getting around that.
Science - the less said, the better about this one.
Advanced self-defence - because Pete had certain Things To Say about the fight with Lee and about using powers. Seems I need better control.
And the fun stuff: Art (which got better after looking at other people's class lists, although I'll miss my desk-mate), Mandarin, Arabic and Hindi. I'm far enough ahead in Arabic and Mandarin that I should be able to take the extra workload, and Strange made noises about giving me translation exercises from his research if I take Hindi. First actual friendly words he's spoken since last weekend.
Language-wise I don't need to keep taking the Askani, but I'm going to any way, since the other stuff is interesting. And I'm also doing that First Aid/Field Medicine class, since I promised Moira I would and it helps the healing to know where the bits go.
Speaking of which, another session with Lee coming up. Can't wait until this bloody arm of hers heals up so I can get rid of these bloody burns on mine.
As for why all the throwing up and dramatics this past week or so... I had a bit of a setback. With that little problem of mine. I'm just about done with the detoxing (if I can stop shivering on and off for no reason), and Pete and Moira have me in hand (before I came back to my room I told them where I had stuff stashed, so there's no tempatation. And I think Pete did a bit of a look-through as well), so I'm well on me way to getting back on the wagon. It just got all too much, and I'm still learning about that whole 'leaning on people' thing. Tho' certain things happening meant that was a bit harder than usual too.
I've got another session with Samson tomorrow sometime. Great stuff. He'll have that understanding look and tell me all addicts have setbacks when they're trying to quit. Which makes me not feel a lot better, I can tell you. BUt I'm trying again, and as I've been told about a million times the last few days, I've got people to help me out. Especially Manny - he's been a bloody marvel, fights with the doctors aside. Which was my fault, actually. I got sort of freaked at the idea of going to medlab and since he already has doctor-phobia, mine added to his and things went blah. But he did take me down in the end, and I did get that second needle from Moira, Doc Bartlet, so no harm done, eh?
Frenchie, sorry for being such a daft cow the past couple of weeks. Can't have been easy having the crazy witch as a roomie. We'll have to do something bonding-like to make up for it - on-campus, tho', since yep, I'm still grounded. And Cain seems determined to wear me hands out, with all the sanding and stuff he's been getting me to do. All the boring, messy, hard stuff. I'm just glad we didn't mess up anything along the lines of sewerage pipes or something, or I'd be up to me elbows in the shite, literally.
Yer'd think he didn't like me or something. :P
And I've finally had a chance to sit down with Pete and go through classes. I'm taking a couple of extra since they're languages and I'm good at those, but I have to make sure the maths and science doesn't lose out. So, what I'm taking:
Maths - and hey, I even go up a level. Just scraped through the make-up test.
English - which is getting easier. The rules don't fit any of the regular language rules, but I'm getting around that.
Science - the less said, the better about this one.
Advanced self-defence - because Pete had certain Things To Say about the fight with Lee and about using powers. Seems I need better control.
And the fun stuff: Art (which got better after looking at other people's class lists, although I'll miss my desk-mate), Mandarin, Arabic and Hindi. I'm far enough ahead in Arabic and Mandarin that I should be able to take the extra workload, and Strange made noises about giving me translation exercises from his research if I take Hindi. First actual friendly words he's spoken since last weekend.
Language-wise I don't need to keep taking the Askani, but I'm going to any way, since the other stuff is interesting. And I'm also doing that First Aid/Field Medicine class, since I promised Moira I would and it helps the healing to know where the bits go.
Speaking of which, another session with Lee coming up. Can't wait until this bloody arm of hers heals up so I can get rid of these bloody burns on mine.
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Date: 2004-09-05 03:04 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-09-05 04:32 pm (UTC)We do.
Date: 2004-09-05 04:38 pm (UTC)...
Date: 2004-09-05 04:50 pm (UTC)I can still crash Art class with you, I just cannot take it for credit anymore.
Are you restricted to the mansion or are you allowed on the grounds? If you are allowed on the grounds we could go riding. I should introduce you to the horse from Asgard - he still needs a name, besides. I never did name him.
Re: ...
Date: 2004-09-05 04:54 pm (UTC)And thanks, mate. I'm not very good at letting people help, but I'm glad they still do it any way.
I just wish...
Date: 2004-09-06 05:21 pm (UTC)I've been staying away from the computers of late, especially after Angelo's little revelation. Or whatever that was.
I owe you so much that I don't think I can ever repay it. But that won't stop me from trying.
Manuel
PS - You _do_ know that that wasn't me, right? I thought I felt some suspicion, so I thought I would say it straight out.
I know.
Date: 2004-09-06 08:12 pm (UTC)I'm sorry - it only occurred to me because you've sworn revenge against Ange so many times, and no-one else has a reason for doing this, that I can think of. But only for a second - I know you wouldn't do something like that.
I am trying to change
Date: 2004-09-07 04:21 am (UTC)I cannot erase my dislike of the Mex - of Angelo in a day. That's beyond even my power.
Some days it is easier than others. Do you think I could offer to take some of his distress, or do you think he would mock me for even thinking of such a thing?
Manuel
Probably not a good idea
Date: 2004-09-07 05:44 am (UTC)In your own time, love. It doesn't have to change in a day.
Heh
Date: 2004-09-07 06:12 am (UTC)I know I will never be universally loved - I'd have to compel that, and then it would be meaningless - but I'd settle for just a reduction in the number of people who really don't like me at all.
Manuel
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Date: 2004-09-07 06:18 am (UTC)And you're not the only one tired of the hostility around here. Trust me to get grounded just when I need to escape most. ;)