Better

[xp_daytripper]

Still not entirely settled, but the outing with Marie helped. An the other part with Manuel when I got back was also helpful. *grins* I'm still pretty fucked up, but. Think I'll go down an see if Angelo could use another healing session. The last one wiped me out but good, an hey, I've got magical energy to burn now.

'S weird. Last time I was just silly, this time I'm pissed off. Still, I've probably got reason to bee. An everyone's so on edge an scared/angry/excited right now, it's hard not to be effected, even when you're only doing an empath and ain't one yourself.

Back in Brighton, I was cold and hungry an had to fight off any cunt who had a mind to have a peace of me. But they weren't after me cause of the mutant thing, or the magic. It was survival, doing what an who you had to so you'd eat next day. Here I've got a place to sleep an plenty to eat an school an training an people I mite learn to call friends one day, but in a way I feel less safe than I ever did on the streets. Cause at least I knew where the shit was coming from. Here, its hidden, an people expect me to trust them without giving me a reason too. They expect me to believe them when they say its all right when they've lyed in the past, without giving me the reasons why its going to be all right.

Well, fuck that. I'm gunna do what I need to too make sure I'm safe. An if you don't like it when I ask you to tell me why everythings gunna be fine, well you can just shove it where the sun don't shine. Least Pete had the decency to tell us what he'd done to fix up his cock-up.

*grrs* Bugger, I'm just getting myself all pissed off again - I'm for visiting Angelo before I accidentally turn my computer into a peace of fruit or teleport it into the Henry Rollins dimension or sum thing.

Comments

[x-rogue.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I couldn't find the words to put around exactly why this was getting to me so bad. You got it in one try. I was never that scared on the street, not like I am here. Maybe I was just stupid. Still, there were always choices, options, and no one to judge. Besides, out there, it was just me. We'll get it worked out though. I'm sure of it.

[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

Right.

So, who?

You know very well..

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

That the anger could go away, if I wished it.

And, for me at least, it's trivial to tell who can be trusted and who cannot.

MdlR

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[xp_daytripper]

Who, what? Whose bein a pillock? The Ruskie, but we've sorted that out. Whose coming for us next? That's what I'd like to know.

Re: You know very well..

[xp_daytripper]

I'll keep me anger, thanks. It's an old mate an I'd hate to see it go. I'll steer clear of you until I calm down - wouldn't want to give you that headache back.

Trust ain't something either of us do. But in this place there's too much that can affect me that I don't know about, so I'm finding I have to at least try. Which could possibly be why I'm so pissed off. *grins* An not all of us have a power that makes other people our playthings so we just have to learn other ways.

Re: You know very well..

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

I understand.

The offer is still on the table.

MdlR

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[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

No (http://www.livejournal.com/community/x_journal/37187.html). But since the question is directed at more people than just you, I thought it only fair to make a post of it.