No point in hiding any more

[xp_daytripper]

Since the secret's out, there's no point in trying to hide it any more. Alison, any chance we could go shopping tomorrow afternoon after I get back from Stonewall? There's a swimsuit that needs buying - learning to swim in shorts and t-shirt is bloody difficult. Just... nothing too skimpy, all right? Hell will freeze over before I ever get into a bikini.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

You could get swim trunks like the guys wear? They make them for women - same basic design, only tighter in some areas.

[xp_daytripper]

I think I know what you mean. *ponders* I'll try something like that on at least. I'm just trying to get my head around the fact I'm talking about bloody swimsuit shopping here and not going into a panic. Well, there might be a little bit of panicking.

[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

I do not think anyone would fault you for some panicking.

Or possibly demanding food and/or a side trip to amusing stores designed to scare those of us with a minimal of spiky clothing or loud punk music.

[xp_daytripper]

Oh good. 'Cause I'm trying really hard with this, and I figured the best way to get the fuck over meself was to throw meself in the deep end, so to speak. Which is panic-inducing on its own.

And there will definitely be food demanding. And the scary music place - Alison turned out to know the British rave scene, so I think we can reach an agreement on that side of things.

[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

There is a small, evil, possibly suicidal part of me that says I should suggest that next, we look into formalwear.

It is a -very- small part and silenced by my instinct for self-preservation.

[xp_daytripper]

You'd do best to listen to that second one. There are limits.

Besides, I've already got a nice dress. Possibly not formal, but it makes people's eyes pop, and that's good enough isn't it? Domino has good taste, and she's scarier than you.

[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

I usually listen to the voice of self-preservation.

Amanda? Most people are scarier than me.

[xp_daytripper]

Yes and no on the scary thing. I mean, most of the time you're all sweet and harmless, but they don't call you the Devil Woman in Training for nothing. ;) Besides, I seem to remember threats involving photos and dresses and the picture manipulating program. And someone's powers...

[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

SHH! You'll give away all my secrets!

:)

No panicking!

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

I can insure that, if you'd like.

I don't like panicking any more than you do. Especially when it's not my panic.

But hey, at least now I can _SEE_ that it's not my panic. Progress, yes?

Manuel

Yes, progress

[xp_daytripper]

Knowing the difference between my panic and yours is a bloody good thing. And thanks for the offer, but it's only a little panic, and it's mine and I prefer to deal with it my way. Which is making a lot of bad jokes and trying not to think about it.

Although I might need you for the actual wearing in public - well, at the school, since there's no fucking way I'm going anywhere where someone I dont' know will see me - since the panic is bound to be a lot bigger and I have to do this. Hiding still after everyone knows would just make me a coward.