xp_daytripper | So, here's the thing (Reply)

I ain't about to tackle full-on military, especially since last time worked so well. And Sarah should know better herself, which is one of the reasons why I'm so bloody angry right now, because one of my mates has apparently decided to off herself in spectacular fashion. And there's the people that can do the job much better than any of us, and I'm happy for them to do it, even if it means pacing a hole in the carpet waiting for news.

But, I'm sick of people drumming in how stupid Angelo and my first reaction was. It was stupid, but we didn't go anywhere once we'd thought about it - or at least, once I knew there were soldiers involved, I was having some major second thoughts. And now anything could be happening, and all I keep hearing is "you were stupid to want to go and help". Well, fine, maybe I am stupid, but she's my mate, and I don't want anything happening to her, all right? So excuse me if I reacted with my emotions and not my head. Still getting used to this friends business and like Angelo said, when you spend any amount of time looking after yourself, your first reaction is what you can do, not who you can ask. But the second reaction is the one I went with, all right?

Fuck. Fucking bloody buggery hell. Times like this I wish I could scry worth a damn.