Kidnapped again
Aug. 12th, 2004 09:51 amOnly this time it was by Strange and Rom all day yesterday for the magical side of the physical. Cleaning the last of the Enchantress's spell out of my head (Manny broke it, but he couldn't get rid of all of it, not being a magic user), checking things out power-wise, another dawn purification ritual in the fucking buff (Strange wasn't there for that *snorts*). Upshot is I have a shiny new amulet thingie, made with the Asgard power Strange got from Doug, blue this time, and a weird, disconnected sort of feeling. I think Rom's playing with my reactions a bit, worried I'm about to freak out or something.
Oh, and I'm due some karmic backlash for a certain binding spell. Actually, I'm already getting backlash of a sort, but that's different. Still, I did what I thought I had to do, and I'll accept the results, even if they suck.
Called Beth last night after the Wonder Twins were done with me. Shinobi, any chance of that ride this afternon?
Oh, and I'm due some karmic backlash for a certain binding spell. Actually, I'm already getting backlash of a sort, but that's different. Still, I did what I thought I had to do, and I'll accept the results, even if they suck.
Called Beth last night after the Wonder Twins were done with me. Shinobi, any chance of that ride this afternon?
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Date: 2004-08-12 07:03 am (UTC)If you did whatever it was that you did because you had to and you had no other choice, then why should you be punished for it?
It was necessary.
Date: 2004-08-12 07:05 am (UTC)Give me time for my emotions to get with the program. I've not been treated well by folks who did what you did in the past, and I'm currently having very loud arguments with my past that the circumstances and outcome are Very Different now than they were then.
However, if you happen to have any thorazine in your room, best to keep that fact well to yourself.
Manuel
Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 07:28 am (UTC)Re: It was necessary.
Date: 2004-08-12 07:29 am (UTC)I do believe you.
Date: 2004-08-12 07:32 am (UTC)Stupid traumas.
But, to reinforce: I do believe you. I know that you very likely saved me from a very painful sexual execution by the Enchantress. I _know_ this.
In my heart and in my memories, though, I keep seeing the doctors and the needles. I just need some time to work through it all.
Will you give me that time?
Manuel
Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 07:33 am (UTC)Even though you did not do it with malicious intent?
That's bloody unfair.
Of course
Date: 2004-08-12 07:36 am (UTC)Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 07:37 am (UTC)But that's what happened!
Date: 2004-08-12 07:38 am (UTC)Manuel
Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 07:43 am (UTC)Gah. This is just bloody unfair. My friends should not get in trouble for things that were not their damn fault.
Why the hell doesn't The Enchantress get karmic backlash for the things SHE did? Why doesn't Loki?
Not how I read it.
Date: 2004-08-12 07:43 am (UTC)Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 07:46 am (UTC)I let her in, I let her put the whammy on me, because I was scared and alone and tired of getting hurt - I have to take some responsibility for what happened after.
Re: Not how I read it.
Date: 2004-08-12 07:52 am (UTC)But I do spend an awful lot of time with you because it is safe.
I need to stop being safe and start risking a little.
Manuel
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Date: 2004-08-12 07:53 am (UTC)Loki... *shudder* That is one I am glad I never had to deal with. Odin was enough of a bastard in the first place.
I still say you were manipulated into letting her. Taking reponsibility is one thing, but ... I suppose it just seems unfair. I did things I am not proud of or happy about, but I do not take karmic backlash. You do. How is that fair?
He's not that bad a sort, really.
Date: 2004-08-12 07:58 am (UTC)He has very definite ideas about right and wrong, some of which are a little bent. But he cares for his people, loves his wife, and serves his purpose in soceity to the absolute best of his ability.
He loves his adoptive father and even his brother Thor, despite all that has transpired between them. He helped me a lot with coming to grips with the things I had done.
Manuel
Re: He's not that bad a sort, really.
Date: 2004-08-12 08:03 am (UTC)He is the reason we -all- had to deal with three months of hell. How can you say he is not -that- bad?
Re: He's not that bad a sort, really.
Date: 2004-08-12 08:10 am (UTC)Scars
Date: 2004-08-12 08:10 am (UTC)Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 08:13 am (UTC)Re: Scars
Date: 2004-08-12 08:15 am (UTC)This is going to sound stupid, but I kind of want to keep mine. It is.. a reminder.
Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 08:17 am (UTC)Re: He's not that bad a sort, really.
Date: 2004-08-12 08:17 am (UTC)I never said he was perfect. He took all of us and scattered us across space and time for revenge, and because he is the God of Chaos, and you'll have to admit that all of us running around was highly chaotic.
Manuel
not so stupid
Date: 2004-08-12 08:19 am (UTC)Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 08:20 am (UTC)Re: ...
Date: 2004-08-12 08:23 am (UTC)Are you getting the piercings re-done too?