Kidnapped again

[xp_daytripper]

Only this time it was by Strange and Rom all day yesterday for the magical side of the physical. Cleaning the last of the Enchantress's spell out of my head (Manny broke it, but he couldn't get rid of all of it, not being a magic user), checking things out power-wise, another dawn purification ritual in the fucking buff (Strange wasn't there for that *snorts*). Upshot is I have a shiny new amulet thingie, made with the Asgard power Strange got from Doug, blue this time, and a weird, disconnected sort of feeling. I think Rom's playing with my reactions a bit, worried I'm about to freak out or something.

Oh, and I'm due some karmic backlash for a certain binding spell. Actually, I'm already getting backlash of a sort, but that's different. Still, I did what I thought I had to do, and I'll accept the results, even if they suck.

Called Beth last night after the Wonder Twins were done with me. Shinobi, any chance of that ride this afternon?

Comments

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

Karma is a stone bitch, I think.

If you did whatever it was that you did because you had to and you had no other choice, then why should you be punished for it?

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[xp_daytripper]

Because it wasn't the only way. I should have thought harder, come up with something else other than hitting my boyfriend with a binding spell. Sure, he agreed, but only because I didn't tell him exactly what I was going to do. So, he's furious at me now, and I get to spend the next few days waiting for the other shoe to drop, karmically speaking.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

So you are being ... punished for making an unwise decision under pressure?

Even though you did not do it with malicious intent?

That's bloody unfair.

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[xp_daytripper]

Welcome to the world of magic. Besides, it's not just that. There's stuff I did when I was with the Enchantress to deal with as well. Rom and Strange ae helping me out.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

But you were not you when you were...


Gah. This is just bloody unfair. My friends should not get in trouble for things that were not their damn fault.

Why the hell doesn't The Enchantress get karmic backlash for the things SHE did? Why doesn't Loki?

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[xp_daytripper]

I'd say getting her arse handed to her by Alison and having her castle looted and her slaves freed was a pretty good backlash for Amora, wouldn't you? As for Loki... sometimes being a bastard gets you what you want better than doing things properly. But it does build up - Loki will get his, one day, same as Rack did.

I let her in, I let her put the whammy on me, because I was scared and alone and tired of getting hurt - I have to take some responsibility for what happened after.

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[x-tarot.livejournal.com]

She will just rebuild eventually.

Loki... *shudder* That is one I am glad I never had to deal with. Odin was enough of a bastard in the first place.

I still say you were manipulated into letting her. Taking reponsibility is one thing, but ... I suppose it just seems unfair. I did things I am not proud of or happy about, but I do not take karmic backlash. You do. How is that fair?

It was necessary.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

I know this.

Give me time for my emotions to get with the program. I've not been treated well by folks who did what you did in the past, and I'm currently having very loud arguments with my past that the circumstances and outcome are Very Different now than they were then.

However, if you happen to have any thorazine in your room, best to keep that fact well to yourself.

Manuel

Re: It was necessary.

[xp_daytripper]

No Thorazine. Nothing even close. And I am sorry, even if you don't believe me right now.

I do believe you.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

I didn't think that you did - that sentence slipped out before I could stop it.

Stupid traumas.

But, to reinforce: I do believe you. I know that you very likely saved me from a very painful sexual execution by the Enchantress. I _know_ this.

In my heart and in my memories, though, I keep seeing the doctors and the needles. I just need some time to work through it all.

Will you give me that time?

Manuel

Of course

[xp_daytripper]

I might be a pain in the arse, but I'm not pushy. Just keep the enslavement comments down, all right? I felt like shite reading that in your journal.

But that's what happened!

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Nevertheless, I will try to be a little more discreet.

Manuel

Not how I read it.

[xp_daytripper]

You made it sound like that's the way it's been from the start, that I was stopping you from getting to know other people. Maybe I read it wrong. I accept the responsibility for what happened at Amora's castle, but I'm not your bloody jailer.

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

I am coming to force to catch butterflies with me in five... four... three...

[xp_daytripper]

You're completely nuts, you know that, don't you roomie?

Grab Cloud for this - we need silly roomie bonding time and she'd never forgive us otherwise. ;)

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

Barking, even.

She is being grabbed as we speak!

[xp_daytripper]

Mad as a box full of badger, you are...

[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

Hrm. Amanda?

Is it ok if I nab Frank for the afternoon? Sun's just about ready to hit my windowsill just right. He could do the sunning thing there for a while...

[xp_daytripper]

Sure - he's been pining after his favourite sunlamp, any way. *grins*

[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

I don't think he'll miss flying horribly. The first few times he had really hard landings, the poor baby.

He was so brave when we broke through the wards! Least I can do is spoil him a bit. ;)

[xp_daytripper]

I'm still confused over how he got dragoned in the first place... Still, the unbinding spell I did worked on him too, so maybe he fell afoul of Loki's sense of humour too.

And spoiling is fine by him and me. *grins*

[x-dazzler.livejournal.com]

I don't know either but I'n not complaining. Once I got him to jump off that cliff he did just fine as a dragon. ;)

Woo! Spoiling should be fine by everyone, really.

[x-kylun.livejournal.com]

If you feel the need for a distraction, or somewhere quiet, we have not yet found the opportunity to talk about my life at the monastery--if, that is, you are still curious.

Also, welcome back. All of you were missed.

[xp_daytripper]

Yes, I'm still curious. I'll track you down sometime soon - I have a feeling working on my meditation this week will be a good thing, and sometimes it helps to have the right frame of mind. I'm thinking talking to you would do that.

[x-shinobi.livejournal.com]

Whenever you're ready, luv. Just say when.