Since no-one else is saying it...

[xp_daytripper]

Call me crazy, but does anyone else wonder what the fuck else Illyana's kept from us? I mean, by all accounts, she had that demon beat, but she didn't kill it, just sent it back on its way. She lied about her teleporting and the magic (she flat out told me she couldn't do magic, and yet it turns out she can), she just happens to be the focus of a demon attack on the school grounds, and it turns out she's got a magic sword that appears and reappears? Apart from me wondering how the hell I didn't sense the thing unless she's using something to hide it from me, is anyone the least little bit, I don't know, WORRIED? For all we bloody know we've got the Queen of Limbo living in the house, and while you lot seem to think demons are just for Halloween adn those Japanese cartoons, I know what they're like, and no good ever comes of having anything to do with them.

So if you'll excuse me, I'll be on the phone to Doc Strange.

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[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

I'm not worried about my ass. And yes, it would have been good to have warning, just like it would have been good to have warnings any of the other times we've been attacked. We didn't get them, and we delt with it. Life is like that here.

She is not the only one who has secrets, and she is not the only one who's secrets have put others at risk. I'm not excusing it, I'm just saying it's the way things are.

[xp_daytripper]

Maybe I'm tired of life being like that? Maybe for once, just once, I'd like to actually feel safe. That's how the Enchantress got into my head in Asgard, you know. Offered me a place of safety, said she'd stop people giving me a kicking every time I turned around.And then with the magical brain washing. Lots of fun.

I can't do sod all against guns and soldiers and mutant death squads attacking colleges. But this is something I _do_ know about, it's what I got brought up with. No-one seems to remember that. If Illyana had just said, just once, "Oh, by the way, I wasn't exactly straight with you about the whole Limbo thing", I could have _done_ something. Extra wards on the grounds, getting Strange to keep an eye on things, maybe even _helping_ Illyana with whatever the hell it is. Out of all the people here, I probably could have understood what went on in that place better than anyone, and had the resources to help her with it. And I offered. Fuck knows I tried. But she smacked me down, and _kept_ smacking me down. Maybe she was scared, worried she'd be turfed out or something. But as everyone keeps pointing out to me, we don't do that here. She's had plenty of chances, plenty of friends, to sort things out, and she hasn't. So excuse me if that makes me think she's hiding all those secrets of hers for another reason.

Fuck, I'm so tired of all this. I'm tired of being scared, tired of wondering when the next bloody shoe's going to drop and this time it's the one made out of lead that lands on me head and kills me. I'm tired of people and their bloody secrets putting people in danger - and it shouldn't be the way things are. I've come clean about everything that could possibly be a threat to the school, down to the outstanding warrants I probably have in Brighton for soliciting. Pete and the Prof adn Strange know all of it. So why the hell can't people see they're risking other people's lives with their stupid little secrets?

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

I don't know. It takes a while, you know that, to start trusting people. And you can't know she's not going to come out with everything yet, cause she's still not really awake.

And it's not easy, sometimes, to believe that this time you haven't done the big thing that's going to get you kicked out.

[xp_daytripper]

Yeah, I know, she might at that. Just wish it had been before the Big Bad decided to drop by.

And believe me, I know about the trust thing. And the not sure about being kicked out. I mean, I only doped half the school up on a love potion, and I'm still here, right? Not to mention breaking another student's nose and arm and oh, let's not forget Friday's little mishap with the psychotic Cajun.

Everyone keeps telling me she's never hurt anyone, never done anything wrong. So why the worry about being kicked out? Ain't like we've already got enough victims of circumstance here.

But there I go again, asking questions only she can answer. Guess I'll just have to wait. Which I really suck at, by the way.

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

The waiting is hard. Find someone to help distract you.

[xp_daytripper]

Been there, done that, had to give him a sleeping potion to make sure he actually sleeps tonight since empaths and demons? Not a good mix.

Going to go bug Shinobi in a minute. It's either that or raid the Prof's wine cellar, and somehow I don't think he'd appreciate that. Shinobi and plastic dinosaurs and possibly hot chocolate, because there's no bloody way I'm sleeping tonight. Again. Good thing I got a good sleep when Nate put the whammy on me Friday night, eh?

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

Cocoa and donuts, or chocolate milk and cookies for me. People are good to me.

Have fun with the plastic dinosaurs.