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[xp_daytripper]

Well, gotta say one thing for the new shrink. She's tough all right. Not like those hippie wankers in Social Services back home. I gave her the whole sordid story of my early life and she barely batted an eyelid.

*grins*

Guess I'll have to try harder next time.

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Then again, there's a point at which you need to grin and bear it if you want to go on being a functional human being. Especially if the stress that's threatening to make you dysfunctional is an ongoing thing.

And no, I'm not talking about myself at all. Why do you ask?

[xp_daytripper]

Well, funnily enough I thought I was doing okay. Yes, I know I'm not in any way "normal", but I'm not the mess I was last year or even the year before. I'm feeling stronger emotionally than I have in a long... well ever.

Think of it this way, Nate. How would you feel if they told you you couldn't be an X-Man unless you went to the shrink they hired, even if you didn't think you needed one? You go see yours because you chose to. I go to see Sofia because if I don't, I'm unemployed.

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I see Jack because I chose to, you're right. But I also go through the regular psych evaluations that every team member does, on top of that. If I started skipping them, I would be doing a whole lot of sitting at home and watching the jet take off.

No one's suggesting that you're not doing okay. But you're in a stressful job that's going to put additional pressure on you - you and everyone else - and there's no guarantee that one of you won't snap under that pressure at some point. Sofia's job, if I understand correctly, is to make sure that doesn't happen.

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But who does the evaluations? The Prof or your bloke or someone else hired in specially? And if you had issues with whoever they picked, would you be able to say "no, I'd rather go to this person instead" or would they insist?

I just... Fuckit. I feel like I'm being a whiny brat but this really bothers me. Going to a shrink's fucking difficult enough for me, but at least with Samson I knew if we really didn't get on I could ask for Moira to find me someone else. And he never rubbed my nose in the fact that it wasn't up to me at first to go see him. "You must all come and see me or else" seems to be the only thing Sofia knows how to say.

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Think of it this way. In a case like this, it's not so much about you as the job. I see the Professor for those evaluations I mentioned because I want to be able to stay on the team. I see Jack for me, because I want to be sane.

If you feel that you don't need this for you, maybe try and take a step back and remember that you do need it for the job.

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I can't really forget that, can I?

Sod it. I'm off to go work on my power levels a bit and maybe see if anyone's up for a night out. Since yeah, still can't fucking argue a point in these things and not come off feeling like a berk.