Florida sounds nice this time of year...
May. 13th, 2004 08:04 pmI tell you, I'm this close to packing all this study thing in and hitching me way to somewhere where there aren't exams. That or finding a memory-enhancing spell in me books and helping me poor, confused head.
And exams time proper ain't even started yet...
Someone tell me this is all worth it in the end? It ain't like I'm every going to be able to go to university, but tell me finishing high school is worth all this brain busting.
I'm off for a fag break, before me head explodes and makes a mess of Manuel's room. Well, a bigger mess. Somebody needs another crash course in Laundry 101.
Note: I'm just joking about Florida and the spell. Really. Well, mostly.
And exams time proper ain't even started yet...
Someone tell me this is all worth it in the end? It ain't like I'm every going to be able to go to university, but tell me finishing high school is worth all this brain busting.
I'm off for a fag break, before me head explodes and makes a mess of Manuel's room. Well, a bigger mess. Somebody needs another crash course in Laundry 101.
Note: I'm just joking about Florida and the spell. Really. Well, mostly.
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Date: 2004-05-13 05:25 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-05-13 06:40 pm (UTC)and then it was all gone. no fencing, no jumprope, the only dancing was in the living room by myself to the radio while my mom was at work. it SUCKED. massively. no matter how bored I had ever been at school, that was worse.
and they said I'd never go to college or anything. I'd be lucky if I finished HS. and I've never had much thought about college or whatever, but the idea that I'd never be able to get a job or be financially independent was terrible. I mean, I don't want to live at my mom's house when I'm 30!!
So....I'm here. I get to at least finish high school. College is still iffy, regardless of whether I want to go, but I can at least maybe get a bad job if I finish high school. I can have a life. I'm not going ot be a bum on the streets.
so yeah. I'm doing school because I want a future. regardless of whether it was Xavier's or not, I won't have much of one without some sort of skills. and I think I want to go into medicine. I don't know if I want to be a doctor, but it's something. and that's more than I thought I'd have.
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Date: 2004-05-13 07:02 pm (UTC)And one of these days I'm going to have to decide what I want to do with meself once I finish school. I never thought much about it before. *grins* Looks like I get to talk actual guidance counsellor stuff with Pete for a change, though maybe Jake would be better, if he ever comes back from his travels...
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Date: 2004-05-13 09:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-13 09:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-13 09:43 pm (UTC)Why not? Except for the not-liking-the-studying part.
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Date: 2004-05-13 09:51 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-05-13 10:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-13 10:20 pm (UTC)Yes, I know this from experience. Mine was one of my dad's Norton anthologies, though. Short Fiction, I think. Got halfway through a Steinbeck story and dozed off, because Steinbeck is boring, and suddenly I got punched in the face by 1700 pages of timeless classics. :)
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Date: 2004-05-13 10:23 pm (UTC)And I really do think this maths book is plotting to do me in. Either that or drive me insane.
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Date: 2004-05-13 10:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-13 10:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-13 10:37 pm (UTC)That's about where Artie is, and I help him with his homework sometimes. Want a hand?
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Date: 2004-05-14 05:32 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-05-14 11:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-15 05:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-05-15 08:24 am (UTC)Just saying, feel free to ask when you need me.
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Date: 2004-05-14 03:59 am (UTC)Look at me - there's no way I'd've gone to university if I'd stayed back home, 'cause of the money issues, but mostly 'cause I only went to high school enough to not actually get kicked out, not to get good grades, 'specially since I'd've needed a scholarship to even start. The... disagreements with the cops didn't help, either.
None of that applies anymore (well, except the money issues, but I've got more chance of a scholarship now than I did then - a little more, at least). And yeah, I'm going to have to stay in high school an extra year at least to make up my credits, and I'm not even sure I want to go, but the choice is there, y'know? And it is for you, too, however much work it'll take.
Stick with me...
Date: 2004-05-14 05:23 am (UTC)And I do _not_ need a crash-course in Laundry 101. I need to find a maid service, and hire _them_ to do it. Only fair and proper, after all. I still can't believe people are expected to just do their own. How plebean!
Manuel
Re: Stick with me...
Date: 2004-05-14 05:33 am (UTC)What, seriously?
Yes, seriously.
Date: 2004-05-14 06:51 am (UTC)Really.
Manuel
Re: Yes, seriously.
Date: 2004-05-14 07:52 am (UTC)Well, self sufficeincy is just one of thoes things I expect everyone to be able to be. Not knowing how to do your own laundry in this day is very... Mary Lennox not knowing how to dress herself.
I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 08:05 am (UTC)I detest it. So why should I waste my valuable time and effort in doing it, when I could just pay a domestic to take care of the details for me while I attend to other things?
Seems perfectly reasonable, unless you've got some sort of jihad against domestics. Then again, you're an American, you might...
Manuel
Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 09:29 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 10:46 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 10:56 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 11:00 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 11:07 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 11:08 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 11:10 am (UTC)Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 11:18 am (UTC)Dad got a riding mower when I was twelve--we've got big yards. So I didn't mind mowing the lawn so much.
Re: I can do it.
Date: 2004-05-14 01:00 pm (UTC)Thanks for the offer...
Date: 2004-05-14 06:14 pm (UTC)Sure there are people willing to help, and that's good, but in the end, you can only rely 100% on yourself. Because there will come a time when all you'll have is yourself. I learned that early on.
I'm still trying to get used to...
Date: 2004-05-14 07:05 am (UTC)I grew up with one-on-one instruction. A glass of something in one hand, a smoke lit, maybe a book or two cracked open, and we would just _talk_. For hours. If I had a question about a place, the tutor would tell me of his direct experiences, or we would go there directly and examine it for ourselves.
I miss that.
Of course, too many mistakes and it was the switch, but I came to realize that a little pain was a wonderful tool for sharpening the attentions.
Here, it's so cold and formal. Makes it hard to learn. And there's really no need - if you pay attention in class and can actually read the textbook *grr* then you should pick up the material.
Manuel
Re: I'm still trying to get used to...
Date: 2004-05-14 11:38 am (UTC)Art is never cold or formal, and Biology was not as well.
Re: I'm still trying to get used to...
Date: 2004-05-14 12:00 pm (UTC). . . Actually, I don't think I've had a boring, cold, or formal class since I've been here, and I've taken most of 'em. What I missed about actual classrooms when I was homeschooled was the discussion, I think--I mean, my parents are smart people, and we talked about stuff, but there was a max three different points of view on any subject. Get a dozen different people into a room, get 'em excited about a discussion--which most of the teachers here can do no problem--and you've really got something special.
Re: I'm still trying to get used to...
Date: 2004-05-14 06:16 pm (UTC)Re: I'm still trying to get used to...
Date: 2004-05-14 11:41 am (UTC)No thank you.
Date: 2004-05-14 11:53 am (UTC)I am frustrated.
And no, I will not accept aid in this matter. I do not wish to acquire any _more_ debts.
Manuel
Re: No thank you.
Date: 2004-05-14 06:17 pm (UTC)As for incurring debts... my point exactly as far as your offer to do for me goes. I know you want to and can affod to, but it's too much. I do appreciate it, tho'.
No.
Date: 2004-05-14 08:08 pm (UTC)I will get through it. Eventually.
Besides, it's not like I really care how I'm assessed by these people. I couldn't tell you how I'm doing. I know that Psi is not going well, but it was taught by Kwannon, and she had no interest in teaching me how to do anything.
And they don't know how to handle an empath, anyway.
Well, Charles does, but he doesn't want to teach me. He harps incessantly on something called self-realization.
Manuel
Re: No.
Date: 2004-05-15 05:55 am (UTC)I've done both
Date: 2004-05-14 06:26 pm (UTC)When I was a ward of the state, they tried to put me through the great British education system. Classes of forty or more, teachers who don't give a toss or had no idea what they were doing, never enough books and such. I picked up what I could, the days I was actually there, and copped more than me fair share of beatings because the teachers thought I was giving cheek when I told them I didn't understand the work.
What they do here is much better. At least they notice when I have trouble, and there's plenty of people who are willing to help. And no-one hurling blackboard erasers at me head. ;) I might complain, but it's that or go madder than a box full of badgers, and you don't want to see that again. *wry grin*