The fucked-up rollarcoaster ride that is addiction...

[xp_daytripper]

This week's been one of the less-fun ones of my life, but there's been some good to it as well. I haven't had a fix since... Tuesday two weeks ago now, which is pretty good considering this time it's a lot harder. No handy-dandy cleansing rituals, or Homily's potions, just willpower, the docs' medicines, and support from various people. One in particular. The cravings are still there, which explains why I've been keeping myself busy and away from people - I get cranky when I need a fix, and you lot shouldn't have to bear the brunt of it - but the physical withdrawal's just about done (bar the random bouts of shivering and feeling sick occasionally), and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak.

Unless that's a train. *grins* Just joking.

Strange kept me hard at work all Saturday - that's why I passed out as soon as I got back in, Frenchie. Astral projection, sending my mind out of my body; it's all pretty hippy-sounding. It works, tho', although I can only manage the concentration for a few seconds before I start thinking about what's for lunch or my Arabic homework or something and BAM, back in my own body again. Oh, and I should warn people - there's a chance I might end up in people's dreams before I get the hang of this. Mostly those people I have some kind of connection with, and Strange is teaching me how to get the hell back out again, but just a warning. A bit like the 'paths when they're first learning to shield, I think.

Oh, and speaking of Strange - Frenchie, I did ask him about clairvoyance (the magical version of pre-cog) and he's drumming up some sources for you. And he said something about wanting to meet with you sometime, talk to you about it. No doubt he'll email you or something.

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If the physical symptoms persist...

[x-madelyn.livejournal.com]

...come down and see one of us. I know you don't like the medlab, but there's no reason for you to go through the discomfort if you don't have to. Especially if you're still having trouble eating - you can't afford to lose much more weight.

All that aside... you're doing well, kiddo. Moira's probably already told you this, but you have a lot of people who are proud of you, and are there to help you out when you need it.