Since no-one else is saying it...

[xp_daytripper]

Call me crazy, but does anyone else wonder what the fuck else Illyana's kept from us? I mean, by all accounts, she had that demon beat, but she didn't kill it, just sent it back on its way. She lied about her teleporting and the magic (she flat out told me she couldn't do magic, and yet it turns out she can), she just happens to be the focus of a demon attack on the school grounds, and it turns out she's got a magic sword that appears and reappears? Apart from me wondering how the hell I didn't sense the thing unless she's using something to hide it from me, is anyone the least little bit, I don't know, WORRIED? For all we bloody know we've got the Queen of Limbo living in the house, and while you lot seem to think demons are just for Halloween adn those Japanese cartoons, I know what they're like, and no good ever comes of having anything to do with them.

So if you'll excuse me, I'll be on the phone to Doc Strange.

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[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

Lovely. So people can say whatever the fuck they want about my best friend, but I'm not allowed to say anything back. Why didn't somebody stop them before saying things I was foreced to get mad about?

Oh, wait. I wasn't forced to do anything, cause, you know, free will is a gift and a test from God. I'm mad of my own choice, and if you want to get mad at me, go the fuck ahead.

[xp_daytripper]

Sorry, Kit-Kat. Maybe I should have been a bit more tactful, maybe I shouldn't have said anything at all, but you know that Illyana scares me and why, so perhaps I wasn't exactly thinking straight last night. I'm sorry she's hurt, and I hope she gets better, but I'm still scared of her and her apparent minions.

You're perfectly entitled to tell me to fuck off, and I'm perfectly entitled to sit in my room with the door warded until someone tells me your best friend _isn't_ the Queen of Limbo and doesn't have some sort of demonic influence. Hope you don't take it the wrong way.

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

See, I have no problem with avoiding people you don't like. That's fine. That's wonderful because it doesn't lead to screaming. It's the saying horrible things about people who can't defend themselves at the moment because they're laid up in the hospital regarding topics you don't understand simply to let off steam or because you're a bit pissy that gets to me.

And I'm sorry your scared of her. She's just Illyana, and she isn't going to hurt anybody. And of course you have every right not to believe that, and to your wards.

[xp_daytripper]

Fine. I'll take it to her when she _is_ able to talk about it, because I'm damned if I'm going to let it go, not this time.

Miles was out there, did you know that? Got to kill a demon of his very own. Too bad we didn't get some kind of warning that someone in Limbo might come looking for her, I could have gotten Strange to ward the grounds or something. But then again, she didn't know anything about magic or the rest, did she? Flat out denied it. She doesn't have to raise her ahdn to anyone to actually hurt anyone - lying about Limbo and what happened there was plenty enough.

But you're right, she's not in a state to defend herself. I'd offer to help with that, do the healing thing, only I have no bloody idea how my magic and hers would get along, so it's probably best I don't. Strange already said it's not the best idea, and he's got a better idea of her magic than me, having been meeting with her every week since Asgard.

I'm not letting off steam and I'm not pissed off. I'm SCARED. And I'm warning people not to shove this under the bleeding rug like they do every other thing. Because like I told Angie, this ain't the bloody Mafia or Nate's old bosses, or even having Magneto's daughter here (sorry Wanda). We're talkign hell dimension. Black magic. Demons. You were there, you saw Belasco, and if his minions are bowing down to your little mate, well, it's got to make you wonder, don't it?

Forget it. You'er being loyal to your mate, and that's a good thing. Just hope it doesn't bite you on the arse later.

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

I'm not worried about my ass. And yes, it would have been good to have warning, just like it would have been good to have warnings any of the other times we've been attacked. We didn't get them, and we delt with it. Life is like that here.

She is not the only one who has secrets, and she is not the only one who's secrets have put others at risk. I'm not excusing it, I'm just saying it's the way things are.

[xp_daytripper]

Maybe I'm tired of life being like that? Maybe for once, just once, I'd like to actually feel safe. That's how the Enchantress got into my head in Asgard, you know. Offered me a place of safety, said she'd stop people giving me a kicking every time I turned around.And then with the magical brain washing. Lots of fun.

I can't do sod all against guns and soldiers and mutant death squads attacking colleges. But this is something I _do_ know about, it's what I got brought up with. No-one seems to remember that. If Illyana had just said, just once, "Oh, by the way, I wasn't exactly straight with you about the whole Limbo thing", I could have _done_ something. Extra wards on the grounds, getting Strange to keep an eye on things, maybe even _helping_ Illyana with whatever the hell it is. Out of all the people here, I probably could have understood what went on in that place better than anyone, and had the resources to help her with it. And I offered. Fuck knows I tried. But she smacked me down, and _kept_ smacking me down. Maybe she was scared, worried she'd be turfed out or something. But as everyone keeps pointing out to me, we don't do that here. She's had plenty of chances, plenty of friends, to sort things out, and she hasn't. So excuse me if that makes me think she's hiding all those secrets of hers for another reason.

Fuck, I'm so tired of all this. I'm tired of being scared, tired of wondering when the next bloody shoe's going to drop and this time it's the one made out of lead that lands on me head and kills me. I'm tired of people and their bloody secrets putting people in danger - and it shouldn't be the way things are. I've come clean about everything that could possibly be a threat to the school, down to the outstanding warrants I probably have in Brighton for soliciting. Pete and the Prof adn Strange know all of it. So why the hell can't people see they're risking other people's lives with their stupid little secrets?

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

I don't know. It takes a while, you know that, to start trusting people. And you can't know she's not going to come out with everything yet, cause she's still not really awake.

And it's not easy, sometimes, to believe that this time you haven't done the big thing that's going to get you kicked out.

[xp_daytripper]

Yeah, I know, she might at that. Just wish it had been before the Big Bad decided to drop by.

And believe me, I know about the trust thing. And the not sure about being kicked out. I mean, I only doped half the school up on a love potion, and I'm still here, right? Not to mention breaking another student's nose and arm and oh, let's not forget Friday's little mishap with the psychotic Cajun.

Everyone keeps telling me she's never hurt anyone, never done anything wrong. So why the worry about being kicked out? Ain't like we've already got enough victims of circumstance here.

But there I go again, asking questions only she can answer. Guess I'll just have to wait. Which I really suck at, by the way.

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

The waiting is hard. Find someone to help distract you.

[xp_daytripper]

Been there, done that, had to give him a sleeping potion to make sure he actually sleeps tonight since empaths and demons? Not a good mix.

Going to go bug Shinobi in a minute. It's either that or raid the Prof's wine cellar, and somehow I don't think he'd appreciate that. Shinobi and plastic dinosaurs and possibly hot chocolate, because there's no bloody way I'm sleeping tonight. Again. Good thing I got a good sleep when Nate put the whammy on me Friday night, eh?

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

Cocoa and donuts, or chocolate milk and cookies for me. People are good to me.

Have fun with the plastic dinosaurs.

*coughs*

[x-scarletwitch.livejournal.com]

No offense taken. I am...withholding comment on the entire situation until I can get a better feel of it.

Which may be never, at this point.

Re: *coughs*

[xp_daytripper]

Probably a good idea. My head's not any better for all this.

[x-skin.livejournal.com]

Oh, you can say what you want. I'm just asking you not to tell the girl who, lest we forget, was seriously traumatised herself only a day or two ago, to fuck off.

[x-kitten.livejournal.com]

This would be me asking everyone to stop saying horrible things about the girl who, lest we forget, was put in the hospital wing just two days ago and to kindly fuck off.

Ah, but it's ok to say nasty thing about Illyana. Right. I forgot. Welcome to the double standard.

And, Angelo, I will point out that Amanda doesn't seem to have a problem with me or what I said. So would you be so kind as to stay the fuck out of it? Thanks muchly.

[xp_daytripper]

How about the two of you knock it off? Kitty and I have talked, Ange, and things are... well, not sorted, but we've reached a point where I'm not going to chase it until Illyana's back on her feet and can swing back.

[x-skin.livejournal.com]

So it's not okay, suddenly, to raise questions and concerns that as far as I can see no one can say definitely aren't legitimate?

What Clarice said was crossing the line, I'll give you that. And maybe Amanda could have phrased things better, but she was afraid.

But... yeah. Okay, I'll stop defending my friend although you only want to defend yours. Mine's up and around, to be fair. I can't be bothered with this anymore anyway.