Fuck

[xp_daytripper]

Nice to know I'm not thought of as capable of making a decision, or telling someone no. I did what I did last night 'cause I thought it needed doing. I knew the risks going in, and I don't regret nothing.

Now I'm going to go find some non-magical way of blowing off steam before I do something stupid. Oh, sorry, stupider.


Thanks for those that stuck up for me.

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Drop me a line if you need someone to vent with.

[xp_daytripper]

I will. Some of the stuff you said bears talking about.

[x-forge.livejournal.com]

Busy in the lab tonight, unfortunately. But I'm pretty easy to find if you know where to look usually.

[xp_daytripper]

*nods* Case in point, me and the back porch. I'll chase you up tomorrow.

[x-skin.livejournal.com]

Feel like a spar, little sister? Or a smoke? I'm all yours for either.

[xp_daytripper]

Well, considering smoking's bad for me and I expect someone to tell me not to do it any minute now, I guess sparring it is. Except I'm not exactly steady on my feet yet, so tomorrow?

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<3

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That was a little heart symbol, in case you missed it. It's rare, I understand how you might.

[xp_daytripper]

Thanks, former roomie. :) And thanks for what you said - you know me pretty well, don't you? Especially the bit about asking people if they want help.

[x-foliate.livejournal.com]

Any time, chickpea.

Well, I know how furious I would be in your shoes, and I like to think we're a little bit alike, compliment to me. :)

[xp_daytripper]

We are a bit alike. And the compliment's mine. ;)

Well then.

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I think I felt that from here.

Come up and see me.

Manuel

Re: Well then.

[xp_daytripper]

I'm not surprised you felt that.

I'll be up soon, if you can handle me being in a foul mood. I know you've got a lot on your plate right now.

That was somewhat of the _point_.

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I can banish bad moods with a thought, remember?

If you want me to.

Manuel

Re: That was somewhat of the _point_.

[xp_daytripper]

*blinks* You've got your powers back?

Feel that?

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Does that answer your question for you?

Manuel

Re: Feel that?

[xp_daytripper]

...

It was Valentine's, wasn't it? I knew the link felt different. Why didn't you say earlier, when I asked?

Because.

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I have my reasons. Being Empath is not exactly something I can be proud of as a whole.

A little ray of sunshine isn't likely to damn me overmuch.

Manuel

Re: Because.

[xp_daytripper]

Probably not, no. But there were good points. Otherwise I wouldn't be with you, would I?

Tho' then again, apparently my judgement's shot any way. Don't know what's bad for me, according to some.

I'd rather you didn't take this away, love. Been a while since I've been angry and I'd rather let it take its course rather than get shunted aside yet again.

Very well.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

As you wish.

Your anger is yours, to deal with as you wish. And if your judgement is shot, that means mine is nonexistant.


Manuel

Re: Very well.

[xp_daytripper]

Better angry and dealt with now than pushing it aside and having it blow up in my face later. And with the magic, that's more a actual thing than an expression.

Non-existant how? Meaning me? I'm sorry if that came out bad, like I said, I'm angry and I don't think well when I'm angry.

I was just thinking...

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of the many extremely stupid things I've done since I got here.

Now that I don't have any of the emotional associations, I can see exactly how fucking dumb I really am sometimes.

It's amazing that I managed any rational thought at all.

Manuel

Re: I was just thinking...

[xp_daytripper]

*wry grin* Well, yeah, sometimes you were a bit of a pillock. But not all the time, and there was some good you did as well. Just remember that, when you're hating yourself, okay?

All right if I come by later tonight, when I'm done thinking and being shirty? I'd like to talk. And not-talk.

Sure.

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Just come on in when you're ready. I'll be here.

Manuel

Re: I was just thinking...

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You got your powers back? Awesome, man! I know that was bugging you.

Still exploring it, but yeah.

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Seems like I did.

Manuel

Re: Feel that?

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congrats! no wonder you felt off when I was near you...as in nothing at all.

I thought it was me actually sheilding...but maybe not.

This bears more experimenting with.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Because I have no idea how my power interacts with another empathic talent. But I have been shielding, albeit just the mirror-wall to reflect everyone else away from me.


Manuel

Re: This bears more experimenting with.

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....right. well. I felt nothing. should definately check it out. but not now.

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I'm with you babe. if you want to go to brighton or something maybe?

just a thought.

[xp_daytripper]

Raincheck? I'd say I still have a headache, but I don't want anyone thinking I've hurt myself.

[x-blink.livejournal.com]

doesn't have to be today. whenever.

[xp_daytripper]

Works for me. Thanks, Pixie.

Hmm

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Well, this'll probably be a 'rain check' style thing, considering I've seen you after a major spell before.

But, I think they finally installed the climbing wall in the gym. Least that's what it looked like when I was down there last.

If you need to blow off steam still when you're feeling more balanced, I'd spot you. :)

Re: Hmm

[xp_daytripper]

Thanks for the thought, Tinkerbell. I'll take that raincheck, definitely.

*grins* Be a bit less scary than the last bit of climbing we did in Vegas, eh?

Re: Hmm

[x-jubilee.livejournal.com]

*grins impishly* I thought you liked danger, Mandy? But yeah, it'll be nice to do some climbing that isn't about the speed or the timing. (Gods, I don't think I've ever been that tense. Seriously thought I was going to slip there a few times, especially when I had to hold on with my legs like that.)

Re: Hmm

[xp_daytripper]

But the skirt falling over your head was a right laugh. Nice knickers.

Re: Hmm

[x-jubilee.livejournal.com]

Dude, I'll have you know Cookie monster underwear is the height of fashion.

Re: Hmm

[xp_daytripper]

Uh-huh. I suppose I should be glad you weren't wearing one of those thongs, eh?

Re: Hmm

[x-jubilee.livejournal.com]

*blinks* thongs? Who told you!...wait, um...right. *innocent look* They make cookie monster thongs?

Re: Hmm

[xp_daytripper]

Well, there was that one you left at the bottom of Manuel's bed one time...

Re: Hmm

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I wondered where the hell that went. Was it the groucho one, or the 'Insert tab A, into slot B' one? I got that one at this flee market in Cali once, kinda a novelty thing.

God they're uncomfortable though. You ever tried to do linked backflips and then a split in a thong and pushup bra?

Give me a sports bra and my normal under roos any day of the week.

Re: Hmm

[xp_daytripper]

The groucho one. *wry grin* Don't wear 'em meself, which was how I knew you two were at it at one point.

And no, never tried the backflips and splits. Sounds bloody painful.