Fuck

[xp_daytripper]

Nice to know I'm not thought of as capable of making a decision, or telling someone no. I did what I did last night 'cause I thought it needed doing. I knew the risks going in, and I don't regret nothing.

Now I'm going to go find some non-magical way of blowing off steam before I do something stupid. Oh, sorry, stupider.


Thanks for those that stuck up for me.

Comments

Feel that?

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Does that answer your question for you?

Manuel

Re: Feel that?

[xp_daytripper]

...

It was Valentine's, wasn't it? I knew the link felt different. Why didn't you say earlier, when I asked?

Because.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

I have my reasons. Being Empath is not exactly something I can be proud of as a whole.

A little ray of sunshine isn't likely to damn me overmuch.

Manuel

Re: Because.

[xp_daytripper]

Probably not, no. But there were good points. Otherwise I wouldn't be with you, would I?

Tho' then again, apparently my judgement's shot any way. Don't know what's bad for me, according to some.

I'd rather you didn't take this away, love. Been a while since I've been angry and I'd rather let it take its course rather than get shunted aside yet again.

Very well.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

As you wish.

Your anger is yours, to deal with as you wish. And if your judgement is shot, that means mine is nonexistant.


Manuel

Re: Very well.

[xp_daytripper]

Better angry and dealt with now than pushing it aside and having it blow up in my face later. And with the magic, that's more a actual thing than an expression.

Non-existant how? Meaning me? I'm sorry if that came out bad, like I said, I'm angry and I don't think well when I'm angry.

I was just thinking...

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

of the many extremely stupid things I've done since I got here.

Now that I don't have any of the emotional associations, I can see exactly how fucking dumb I really am sometimes.

It's amazing that I managed any rational thought at all.

Manuel

Re: I was just thinking...

[xp_daytripper]

*wry grin* Well, yeah, sometimes you were a bit of a pillock. But not all the time, and there was some good you did as well. Just remember that, when you're hating yourself, okay?

All right if I come by later tonight, when I'm done thinking and being shirty? I'd like to talk. And not-talk.

Sure.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Just come on in when you're ready. I'll be here.

Manuel

Re: I was just thinking...

[x-forge.livejournal.com]

You got your powers back? Awesome, man! I know that was bugging you.

Still exploring it, but yeah.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Seems like I did.

Manuel

Re: Feel that?

[x-mirage.livejournal.com]

congrats! no wonder you felt off when I was near you...as in nothing at all.

I thought it was me actually sheilding...but maybe not.

This bears more experimenting with.

[x-empath.livejournal.com]

Because I have no idea how my power interacts with another empathic talent. But I have been shielding, albeit just the mirror-wall to reflect everyone else away from me.


Manuel

Re: This bears more experimenting with.

[x-mirage.livejournal.com]

....right. well. I felt nothing. should definately check it out. but not now.